hello my dear deviants! i have a hard time believing anyone would still follow me and therefor find this post, but the weirdest thing just happened. i got a random email, and it's short enough to copy paste and I hope the author wouldn't mind because it was quite meaningful to me; " You were one of the all time best artists on DA. I really wish that you would pop in now and then to let your old fans know that you are alive and well and perhaps show us some of the work that you are doing now. " that really touched me. i don't get a lot of reminders about my 'photographic past', but when i do, it's very nice and heartwarming whether it's a message like that, or perhaps i am going through my bookshelf and see a bookcover i shot, or whatever. however past is what it is, so there is no (artistic) work that i am doing now. i wish it wasn't a disappointment to anyone, things come and go in life, and i don't know what killed my inspiration, but i am so glad i had it and it changed my life so much. but it's not the end, just because i don't create photos doesnt mean i don't create other things - like connections between people or decorating my own home - or do and have other meaningful things in my life. i miss deviantart and the community it was and is, i just don't have anything to give to it. thats the only sad part really! i am enjoying my life in London, enjoying my job in software testing, turning 40 (!) next week and just living a normal life. feeling privileged, really, i've been so lucky with everything. anyway thanks for reading if you did, and thank you for being part of my deviantart past if you were <3 my blog is still at http://suzi9mm.blogspot.com/ but it's just light occasional musings