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October 17, 2004
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Canon EOS 10D
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1/125 second
Focal Length
160 mm
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Date Taken
Oct 16, 2004, 12:38:02 AM
i try by suzi9mm i try by suzi9mm
where to start... i don't think many people will see this the way i meant it, for the mere reason that not everyone knows the feelings interpreted here. the photo is born from very personal feelings of mine, but i would not have taken this unless i felt that it touches and concerns more people, women mostly, so the "I" in the title shouldn't lead you to thinking this is a self portrait, I is anyone who understands the feeling portrayed...i wanted to make a general statement.

it's about trying. trying to fit in, be what the beauty ideals present us, be what we think is the way to happiness and success. we look at the world and smile but may feel inside that we're never good enough. i'm exaggarating, but u know.

i know the photo is not perfect, i know. but for now i'm almost satisfied.

background info:
`superkev's idea to use silver umbrella straight ahead above the camera was good, it emphasizes the excessive amount of powder on the face. i wanted a straight, clinical, unforgiving lighting. Kev borrowed me his hands, his filled the gloves better than mine, and i held the scalpel and syringe which was good cos i know how much pain i can take from them. timer was used to take the actual photo. i got the original idea maybe a year ago but only now i felt like i knew how it should look as for the angle, positioning of hands and stuff. the teary eyes are the most important detail of the photo because they reflect everything under the surface.

/edit: this deviation has not shown up in everyone's watch so i will keep editing it in hopes that it shows up everywhere. i'm truly sorry for the inconvenience this may cause by showing up in your watch again. //
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delusionallll Featured By Owner Jul 11, 2008
wow, this is definatley one of my top favorites. great shot with GREAT meaning!!
Aquarosepetal Featured By Owner Jun 24, 2008
great idea, I love the photo.
shprotesse Featured By Owner Jun 11, 2008
One of the most powerful works I saw in your gall ever.

Great concept
CeliaAlma Featured By Owner Jun 10, 2008
XtwiceXshakenX Featured By Owner May 25, 2008  Hobbyist General Artist
Great message, great shot.

monatorgersen Featured By Owner Apr 13, 2008  Student Digital Artist
I remember I saw this before I joined dA, and thought "damn, that was such a cool photo", and I loved the concept. So, I browsed your gallery quite often, and your art was partially what got me to join the place :)
iceythecat Featured By Owner Apr 7, 2008   Photographer
Ouch! No pain, no good shot, huh? :)
ikach Featured By Owner Mar 16, 2008
][ LOVE (ALL:headbang:
) YOUR WORK !:worship:
maidenofwar Featured By Owner Feb 19, 2008
wow...another amazing peice! :heart: i don't think it's too heavy at all....i think, at times, things need to be heavy in order to reach people, otherwise it remains bland and people ignore it.
a very powerful image in my oppinion.

do you mind if i use this in a school project, in the form of an artcard with a your deviantart page printed on, ofcourse....and perhaps a quote from you, a short one, depicting art and its role in society? the idea behind the project is art aiding charity, in a bid to unite people under a common cause...and since art is such a powerful tool....
drkxillusion Featured By Owner Jan 16, 2008   Digital Artist
i think you portrayed the concept well.
and it's so true.

great job.
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